The longer I'm home, the more domestic I become. It's as if the examples laid down in my childhood just take over when I'm home too long ... ohdearlord!
The house is clean, the laundry mostly done. There's gluten-free bread in the machine, tacos are ready to cook. I imagine it might be the last lettuce and tomatoes I can stand to eat until next summer. How and where do they grow these once the warm weather is done and autumn is absolutely in place?
The tv people are coming to interview me tomorrow. Let's see how that goes. If it goes well, I'll share. If not, I shall never mention it again. It will be my third tv interview thingy and I'm hoping that I have finally learned how to self-censor. Last time, a laughing producer said, 'Ohhhh, we had to murder some darlings!' I was relieved that he did but concerned he was laughing.
Actually, that's over here. They got our dates wrong. I've been in Belgium since 2005 and Wendy, the artist, has been here for 3 years. We had so much fun making that. Mustn't relax tomorrow though ...
But it's a short piece and so the temptation to relax into a conversation with the interviewer may not occur in ways that make me forget the potential viewing audience.
It's getting cold ... 4 celsius this morning, rain fell most of the day. My new book arrived. I ordered wrong but it seems like a better starting point than Viktor e. Frankl's original 'Man's Search For Meaning'. He expands on that book in this book.
I devoured it on the tram to the city this afternoon ... 'Existence thus may well be authentic even when it is unconscious, but man exists authentically only when he is not driven but, rather, responsible. Authentic existence is present where a self is deciding for itself, but not where the id is driving it.'
Let's see how that unfolds over these days where I'm catching trams across the city 4 times per week.
I posted a photograph of my workspace the other day and then I decided to withdraw from my commitment to blog everyday. I deleted the 3 posts I had written. But then ... in a moment of brilliance, I deleted my Facebook account and voila, I am back blogging daily ... twice daily today it seems, and so I'll repost the photograph of my work space because I wouldn't mind seeing if time off from Facebook, combined with this promise to blog daily, and the fact I am beginning work on my book, doesn't inspire an evolution in my workspace over time. I'll chart it here. Then again, nothing may happen.
I'm struggling though. I used to write the blog just for me now I'm more conscious of the fact I'm putting this space out there in the big new world called NaBloPoMo. That's odd and I'm trying to get past the whole self-conscious thing.